Monday, October 28, 2013

I hate cliches

When do you know you've had enough?

When the tears flow and you have no more reason to defend them? When you just get a headache because you can't comprehend the rationale, or you just don't want to?

It must be nice to cry. I haven't done it in awhile. I want to, but I can't. Crying can be a luxury too. Funny how you never view it that way until you find something affect you to the extent that you've got so much to let go but you don't know how because you physically cannot.

Every time I stumble on something new, I think to myself: this must be it. It's something worth fighting for, worth staying for, worth crying for.

I thought I'd found it again after the fiasco that preceded. But no.

I've learnt now that everyone is the same.

Someone once asked me if my expectations were too high? I told them I learnt never to expect anymore, I always get disappointed.

But now that I think about it, if I don't have any more expectations why am I still feeling like this.

Maybe it's like I thought, this time will be different. But its' not.

When someone makes you cry (or feel like crying) and you cannot justify it anymore, then you walk away. And you don't look back.

Good thing I've become so good at it.

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

The Revival

You know that feeling you get when you've got the world to say but no shoulder to cry on just coz people don't get it?

All I've ever really wanted is just someone to listen wholeheartedly to what I have to say, giving me that undivided attention and just let me release all the pent-up emotion I have been suppressing in the form of tailored and subtle tweets.

I'm a big girl. I can take care of myself and I've been doing exactly that for four years now. I don't need help, I don't need anyone's help.

I just need a friend.